I have come up with a plan!
It sat with excitement just behind my lips
I tried so hard to cage it in
to keep my plans a secret
“shhhh” I hushed
Anyway, now the plan makes no sense
I spoke it aloud to try and find the sense in it
but the sense has left it altogether
because all my loved ones have died and gone
and the only point was to see them
but!
I have come up with a plan
and I will see to it I finish everything I listed
I will visit their empty homes
their tombs
their favorite spaces
alone
with no fear
with no emotion or purpose other than to fill time
I fill my time with plans
and thoughts
with an arm lifted and a fist clinched
I’ll stand watch for woodpeckers (those where her favorite)
and I’ll wait for hours at his favorite restaurant
to taste the steak he suggested (it’s a meal only few know of that’s not on the menu)
there is something in these things left to me by the dead
it’s a fulfillment of something I planned
and even if there’s is no one to share it with
I will have these memories as my own
<3Saschia
Beautiful 👍🏽
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