The way life’s been going, my best bet is to focus on doing all the things I love. I want to have these experiences forever but if there’s a limit to all this happiness I’m taking in as much as I can now. We’re napping, playing board games, eating healthy and not healthy, we’re going to the gym, swimming, hiking climbing, traveling and whatever else is on our summer bucket list. I’ve learned so much about myself and my loved ones.
One of my biggest lessons is that I’ve been waiting for the money, for the time, for an excuse to do all these fun things in life. It hit me last January that we’ve been living such a limited life and we had more than enough financial support. Now the bills are barely being paid but the relationships in our home have blossomed more than ever before. We are healthier. We are working on maintaining our home space as a team. Where-as before everyone was mad at someone for something around the house having to be done. Now we have the stability and teamwork to support each other’s chores. It’s great. I think if there was one more internal work I’d like to see shift for our family is for Simon and I to bring back that youthful/risk taking energy we had when we first met. Back when we were excited and preparing to take on the world together as a team. I have no doubt our time will come.
With all that being said, I’d swim through the depths over and over to have what we have now but I’d rather if past me could just realize that I don’t have to. I don’t have to suffer to have support, respect, nice things, a life I love, a job I love, the list goes on. We’re done making ourselves suffer over here. We’re ready to hold the bar higher and be patient for all the things that have already been set aside for us.
My Summer Challenge
live the life we’re called to live
live a life I love living
Be patient for all that’s already ours
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