Before and After

I see my reckless behavior

I see me dive headfirst into bullshit

To forget

But this writing thing

It keeps me grounded

Keeps me feeling it

I liked it before how I could drink

And smash shit

Smile and keep it movin

But I was so faded

My soul started screaming

So I uncaged it

And now I just make myself feel

Everything

Cuz that makes my soul vibrate and shit

-Saschia

Diary Of A Tamed Temper

She’s anxiety, rage, and shame all balled into a fireball of untamed magic

And when she pays me a visit

I reach and I twitch

And I grasp at my heart to try and save me

When she comes

I can do nothing but beg for the truth

And I know it’s somewhere close by

So I let it guide me

And I search and I listen

I take it all in

Truth’s lessons

truth’s hurts and truth’s gifts

Till it leads me

To where I’m supposed to be

Till I’m grounded once again

And that’s when

I feel the waters calm

I hear the rains subside

I slowly breathe in watching my chest rise

Ahh…. I breathe out

It’s calm

I breathe in

And I take time

To appreciate my calm because it feels good to be there once again

-Saschia