The world is adjusting
The words are flying out
The book is started
And the ending
Is unfolding before my eyes
It’s the art of patience that’s a killer
But just wait
Just you wait
My life is falling into place
And when it happens
I’ll still have nothing to prove
I’m excited about that
-Saschia
There you were
Beneath my naked body
stripped bare
To the bone
To the soul
And still you stood
Unwavering next to my shattered bones
Next to my full and emptied womb
You accepted my child so much so
you cried to let her go
You taught her to tie her shoes
and taught me I’m someone worth being worried for
Then there’s your real laugh
The rare one that shows up when you’re caught off gaurd with a funny
Your firm squeeze against my thighs
Are both memories I’ll send to the heavens with hopes they’ll return when I’m ready to smile about you again
Not a bullet in the world could have taken you from me, if I could’ve stopped it
Not a job
Not a bad habit
Or a stinky sock
You were my reason
You were
why my heart beat
and why it flowed
And why it will continue to beat this way
until I stop breathing
-Saschia
I’m just here for the chocolate
and you
I do enjoy a good truffle
Or a gummy bear with the perfect texture
But you
I’ve never tasted anything like you
I’ve had gummies and chocolates
Chocolate covered gummies
Nothing like you though
Then there’s the whole thing where
Too much candy gives me a belly ache
Too much of you though?
Well, you make me feel alive
I think I might even be healthier
When I’ve had my bit of you
It’s never enough
Neither things
I always want more candy
And I always want more you
-Saschia
I shift my gaze
Upward
And with every second
That I lift my chin
My heart opens a little wider
And I rise
a little higher
Just me
and those who also seek out
The pleasures in life’s lessons
-Saschia
I enjoy a good romance or a good cry from the loss of a character I’ve come to feel close to. I like delaying or sacrificing my own current desires for my daughters. I like spending time with those I feel most connected to. These are all descriptions of love. But I’d really like to see us start getting more creative by using descriptions of how you show appreciation to those closest to you.
When I started using other words besides the word love, it opened a ton of different ways I could develop a healthy relationship with myself. “Yes, Self, I love you” just became redundant and didn’t really help me step into a place of action. Now, when I’m doing something for myself I define the action. “I’m going to allow myself to step away to write because it helps me unload my thoughts which gives me the energy to focus on the needs of my daughters and my mother.”
Love is a beautiful word and I don’t want to wipe it from our language, but maybe we have allowed it to become too general. We’ve allowed it to become this elusive thing that is selective to only those with the ability to feel, but that’s not true. So let’s stop using love as a magical word, and instead try out using different words or phrases that show how you are stepping into action for those closest to you.
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I slip away from reality
To cook
To clean
To feed
Then I hunker back into
The real world,
My story
-Saschia
The time has come to discuss purpose
Do we all have one when we’re born?
Do we create one?
I am going to say the first thing we should do in life is figure out who we are and with that comes our purpose.
Finding purpose is just coming to accept who you are.
And that is when you find the thing that worth living for.
Don’t confuse your vehicle for your purpose.
And I don’t mean your car. 🤣🤣
Use what you have to get to where you’re going but don’t make what you have your final destination.
#Letterstomyself #goaldigger
I don’t want to speak
Or listen
I want to get lost
In a song
Or
Inside my head
And have nothing to worry about
For a couple hours
I just need a break
-Saschia
