Hope finds me
Like a lurking child
fingers wiggle under the door crack
Shards of light break through
Hope finds me
A glimmer of sunlight
Reflecting off a droplet of dew
It makes home in my heart
Whether I like it it not
-Saschia
The Night
The night is where he hides
He’s open to me
From a distance
It’s always one of us
Pushing the other
In someway
But when the numb comes
It comes
The only option
Is to write it away
The Wait
The feeling in my gut
the taste on my breath
both wretched
so I brush and skip a few meals
an act of hoping that the shift will come soon
I know it will come
It’s just a matter of patience
-Saschia
Job Daydreams
She found the jobs of her dreams
Life threw them on her side table
And she waded through her options as if this was always meant to be
She found her value
And made love to her dreams
Her gift’s not a curse
When she’s getting everything she needs
Before and After
I see my reckless behavior
I see me dive headfirst into bullshit
To forget
But this writing thing
It keeps me grounded
Keeps me feeling it
I liked it before how I could drink
And smash shit
Smile and keep it movin
But I was so faded
My soul started screaming
So I uncaged it
And now I just make myself feel
Everything
Cuz that makes my soul vibrate and shit
-Saschia
Warm Ups
The gills are warming up
They open and close
Stiff from lack of use
My eyes dart back and forth
Like Plath’s
Only thing is I’m alive
I even pat my heart and brag of mornings alone
The madness
the gills
the dead writers
They’re all warming up
The Beloveds
The sky opens up and rains on all The Beloveds
It coats them in peace
They dance and sing to the rhythm of the forest
They have wings that lift them to the heavens
Beams of light ignite the wingless
They rise They dance They sing
Today
I’m ready but I’m not
I’m here and there
I want him then I don’t
I write and I write
But when I don’t
I slip away
Some days I’m left
Some days I’m right
Some days
I’m dreadfully in the middle
Not today though
Because today
I’m all over the place
Us and Our Art Space
You’re the words I want to hear and the voice I seek in the darkness.
You’re the first person I think to call when I have good news
And the one I run to with my bad thoughts
I can’t help it
Separate lives, shared thoughts
Working together to create something
With nothing but the visions in our minds
Diary Of A Tamed Temper
She’s anxiety, rage, and shame all balled into a fireball of untamed magic
And when she pays me a visit
I reach and I twitch
And I grasp at my heart to try and save me
When she comes
I can do nothing but beg for the truth
And I know it’s somewhere close by
So I let it guide me
And I search and I listen
I take it all in
Truth’s lessons
truth’s hurts and truth’s gifts
Till it leads me
To where I’m supposed to be
Till I’m grounded once again
And that’s when
I feel the waters calm
I hear the rains subside
I slowly breathe in watching my chest rise
Ahh…. I breathe out
It’s calm
I breathe in
And I take time
To appreciate my calm because it feels good to be there once again
-Saschia
