New Leaf

Think of the life you have lived until now as over and, as a dead man, see what’s left as a bonus and live it according to Nature. Love the hand that fate deals you and play it as your own, for what could be more fitting?

 Marcus Aurelius

I’ve decided to turn a new leaf. There’s no use in putting myself in places that aren’t for me or maintaining relationships that bring me down. I’ve always been a naturally positive person, even while I grieved, I had a smile on my face. I like people. I like watching people grow and expand and I love learning from those around me.

When I was a kid, I started school young since I had a September birthday. I just remember growing up being fascinated by all my peers as if they were something magic. I still find the magic in people but as a women in her late thirties I’m finally perceiving unconditional love within my own magic.

I chose this quote because it took learning to perceive my own value to truly understand how to love the hand that fate (if you believe in that kind of thing) “deals me” and how to play it as my own. At first thought it sounds easy. Sounds smug maybe even hedonistic but that’s not exactly right.

Learning to accept the cards you’re delt while also learning to use your own gifts and talents to play fate as your own, requires you to both be conscious of the cards being delt or in other words your surroundings and to be fully conscious of your own inner workings so that you can apply your own gifts and talents to the game.

This is where my old leaf has led me.