Summer Challenge

The way life’s been going, my best bet is to focus on doing all the things I love. I want to have these experiences forever but if there’s a limit to all this happiness I’m taking in as much as I can now. We’re napping, playing board games, eating healthy and not healthy, we’re going to the gym, swimming, hiking climbing, traveling and whatever else is on our summer bucket list. I’ve learned so much about myself and my loved ones.

One of my biggest lessons is that I’ve been waiting for the money, for the time, for an excuse to do all these fun things in life. It hit me last January that we’ve been living such a limited life and we had more than enough financial support. Now the bills are barely being paid but the relationships in our home have blossomed more than ever before. We are healthier. We are working on maintaining our home space as a team. Where-as before everyone was mad at someone for something around the house having to be done. Now we have the stability and teamwork to support each other’s chores. It’s great. I think if there was one more internal work I’d like to see shift for our family is for Simon and I to bring back that youthful/risk taking energy we had when we first met. Back when we were excited and preparing to take on the world together as a team. I have no doubt our time will come.

With all that being said, I’d swim through the depths over and over to have what we have now but I’d rather if past me could just realize that I don’t have to. I don’t have to suffer to have support, respect, nice things, a life I love, a job I love, the list goes on. We’re done making ourselves suffer over here. We’re ready to hold the bar higher and be patient for all the things that have already been set aside for us.

My Summer Challenge

live the life we’re called to live
live a life I love living
Be patient for all that’s already ours

Love Myself

Things I’m much better at since I started to intentionally love myself

Setting boundaries
Self Care
Trust
Authenticity
My writing
Letting people go when it’s time
Allowing myself room to grow and change
Prioritizing myself


It always blows my mind how much everything is connected to self love. It’s so connected and always makes such a positive impact that I’m surprised it takes so much to get myself to do it. Here’s an example, just recently I was feeling the pressure. Bills are tight. I had some things I wanted to do. And some things I was waiting for but sleep came over me. Like a heavy sleep. I was gunna fight it but after years of shaming myself for naps, I decided I’d let myself nap for a bit. I was knocked out. Didn’t take any time at all for me to fall asleep. And I kid you not, I woke up just in time to get the exact email I had been waiting for months for.

I was tired for a reason for all of those years in my past and I always felt so much shame and made myself depressed because of needing rest. I finally accepted (years later) that I was actually just pregnant more often than I wasn’t pregnant which was taking a toll on my iron levels and making me sleepy. So anyways now that my body is my own and my energy levels are back, when I’m tired, I trust my body.

So taking time to learn to trust what my body is telling m is a huge part of learning to actively love myself. It’s not easy but it’s always worth the time.

What things are you much better at since you started intentionally loving yourself?

Sunday Reflections

I don’t spend a lot time down the internet rabbit hole as much these days. My days fly by especially with my to do lists these days but for the sake of July 4th I did my usual Church and cleaning. Then made cupcakes with my youngest. Once I finished washing the last load of reusable diapers, I went down the conspiracy rabbit hole on tiktok.

Lots Mandela ones, shifty shadows, and true crime stuff. But what intrigued me most was a story about a women named Erin Valenti who went to a convention and her last call home was about how this is all mind games and we’re in a matrix. Then I saw about the google employee telling the world that AI has feelings. Then I watched Stranger Things with the family.

I’d give this Sunday a 8/10

I always appreciate how the real world is stranger than fiction.

Your Voice Matters

Choosing with integrity means finding ways to speak up that honor your reality, the reality of others, and your willingness to meet in the center of that large field. It’s hard sometimes.

– Terry Tempest Williams

I looked into some of Terry Tempest’s books. They look interesting but I haven’t read any yet. This quote does make me want to read what she has to say though.

I appreciate integrity and I appreciate how she suggests that honoring other’s reality is integrity. I find this statement closely related to mindfulness. It’s no easy thing for me to be mindful. I’m either no mindful that I’m silent or so loud, I forget to be mindful.

When you reach a place in your speech where you can honor your own reality and your neighbors, I find that to be a noble and noteworthy accomplishment.

Women, Stay

On supporting women

I’m still learning to support myself as a woman. Which means as a woman I’m still learning to support women around me.

We are the result of women who fought for us. This is a world where we can vote and they couldn’t. We are in a world where women’s innate abilities aren’t burned at the stake. We aren’t in a world where our lack of “abilities” force us into the mental hospital. So there is nothing but uncertainty for our generation of women.

We are still learning to trust our own thoughts and feelings. We are learning to respect all the simple and complex parts of ourselves society deems unworthy. And we’re going to keep learning and unfolding as time goes on.

Stay encouraged. Stay rising. Most importantly, stay learning yourself.

Creative Freedom

In detachment lies the wisdom of uncertainty.

..in the wisdom of uncertainty lies the freedom from our past, from the known, which is the prison of past conditioning. And in our willingness to step into the unknown, the field of all possibilities, we surrender ourselves to the creative mind that orchestrates the dance of the universe.

— Deepak Chopra

I Came To Thrive and Prosper

A world where women are safe and free.

Where they have freedoms that include “Freedom of speech · Freedom of worship · Freedom from want · Freedom from fear.” 

Where they can set goals and reach for their aspirations authentically and still have enough to care for herself at the end of the week.

Where they choose motherhood or not.

Where they seek and find and seek and find

until they find peace and rest