There you were
Beneath my naked body
stripped bare
To the bone
To the soul
And still you stood
Unwavering next to my shattered bones
Next to my full and emptied womb
You accepted my child so much so
you cried to let her go
You taught her to tie her shoes
and taught me I’m someone worth being worried for
Then there’s your real laugh
The rare one that shows up when you’re caught off gaurd with a funny
Your firm squeeze against my thighs
Are both memories I’ll send to the heavens with hopes they’ll return when I’m ready to smile about you again
Not a bullet in the world could have taken you from me, if I could’ve stopped it
Not a job
Not a bad habit
Or a stinky sock
You were my reason
You were
why my heart beat
and why it flowed
And why it will continue to beat this way
until I stop breathing
-Saschia
Jayne.press 