Destructive

“There is something unwholesome and destructive about the entire writing process.” -Joy Williams

This is the most honest and real quote I’ve seen yet when it comes to the writing process. I like to fantasize about having a neat desk, with a neat outline, and the story unfolding, in order, exactly when I sit in the seat. But no. I have to go out and hunt for it, strangle it, remind the universe that I absolutely love it to the core and that this is just the sculpting. I love writing for what it gives me, but to be the type of writer that has to take something away from the process, it’s hard af. The authenticity, the questioning of what’s true and what’s necessary, it all will drive a stake right into my heart and make me question whether any of this has ever been worth it. And yet, every time I walk away, I’m a little more aware of myself. I’m a little more aware of the human condition, and I do feel it brings me closer to God more than most other things do. So in the end, it’s not a question about whether it’s worth it. The question is do I have what it takes to finish what I started? And the answer is yes, I have what it takes.