You know that thing you’re clinging on to too tight, it’s time to give it away.
The tighter you squeeze
the less it can breathe
Give it away.
Stop holding it secret
or hostage or in the dark corner
of your closet
Give it away.
It wasn’t meant to be
saved for only you and
the few you choose
Give it away.
-Saschia Johnson
Originally posted on Jaynepress.medium.com
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What does it mean to be a whole person?
He toils away
his days tossed like the dirty laundry
that’s left next to the hamper.
Not an ounce of passion
pulses through his tired veins.
His insides sink below the earth
while his muscle memory does the work
Am I of any use here? he shouts to the heavens.
The wind places itself into his net
What use am I to the wind?
“ — “
-Saschia Johnson
Prompt response to Diana’s publication Know Thyself Heal Thyself
This poem was originally published on a Medium publication titled Know Thyself Heal Thyself. The highlighted sections are the lines Medium readers appreciated most.
For the Conscious Writer
What you’re willing to die for, should be the same as what you’re willing to live for. Death is inevitable. Not in a depressing way but we all know it’s coming. What’s unknown, though? Your greatness? The impact your writing will have? How much you will change with your mere existence? Those are all unknowns and they always will be. One of my favorite songs from Eminem’s Music to Be Murdered By -Side B album is his song titled Higher. Here’s a line
All I know is every time I think I hit my ceiling
I go higher than I’ve ever fuckin’ been
That’s something worth thinking about. For a long time, I knew my daughter was the only thing in this life worth dying for. I said that religiously. But I was killing myself. I had destructive thoughts. While I did enjoy fitness, I still wasn’t taking in enough calories so it was taking a toll on my mental health. My digestion went downhill. My emotions went downhill which had an impact on my relationship and ability to make proper decisions for the future of my daughter.
Then it hit one day. Okay, you’d die for your baby and your mom but what are you willing to stay alive for? Life is fuckin hard as shit. So hard in fact that living in a healthy way is the best most precious gift I could ever give to myself and my daughter.
That shift in mindset changed my entire perspective on why I’m alive and how I should be thinking about my purpose, my motivations, my disciplines, and my relationships.
So yes, how did you die, but it also means (and more importantly) How did you live?
Did you tackle that trouble that came your way
With a resolute heart and cheerful?
Or hide your face from the light of day
With a craven soul and fearful?
Oh, a trouble’s a ton, or a trouble’s an ounce,
Or a trouble is what you make it,
And it isn’t the fact that you’re hurt that counts,
But only how did you take it?
You are beaten to earth? Well, well, what’s that!
Come up with a smiling face.
It’s nothing against you to fall down flat,
But to lie there-that’s disgrace.
The harder you’re thrown, why the higher you bounce
Be proud of your blackened eye!
It isn’t the fact that you’re licked that counts;
It’s how did you fight-and why?
And though you be done to the death, what then?
If you battled the best you could,
If you played your part in the world of men,
Why, the Critic will call it good.
Death comes with a crawl, or comes with a pounce,
And whether he’s slow or spry,
It isn’t the fact that you’re dead that counts,
But only how did you die?
–Edmund Vance Cooke
Publication: For the Conscious Writer
The highlights are lines Medium members thought were pretty awesome.
For the Conscious Reader 150 Black Authors organized into genre.
“Many stories matter. Stories have been used to dispossess and to malign. But stories can also be used to empower, and to humanize. Stories can break the dignity of a people. But stories can also repair that broken dignity.” ― Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie
I’ve explained in my previous posts, (here, and here) that I’m going to be more intentional about the books I read. So I wanted to take the time to share my journey with you guys. I’ve begun this journey by google searching “books by black authors.”
Please note: This is only the beginning, I intend to network and connect with lesser known authors as well. Moving on.
I want to read books from individuals whose voices need to be heard and understood, in order create social change. I want to keep a forward momentum on all of our efforts. I do believe that right the internet is a great place to create social change. It can allow people to search up topics without judgement. We just have to make the topics visible to everyone. Also, I have learned mostly as an author, that reading books helps me to notice similarities I have with the others, whether it be the author or the characters. I love that feeling when I’m reading and I’m like “Oh, they thought of that too!”
Ok, I won’t make you wait any longer, here is the list of lists of black authors from reliable sources.
Oprah Magazine- 44 Books by Black Authors
Ideas.Ted.Com- 62 books by Black authors recommended by Ted Speakers
Penguin Random House- 33 Books by Contemporary Black Authors
KPBS.org- 6 Books By Black Authors To Put On Your Summer Reading List
PBS.org- 10 Black Authors Everyone Should Read
BuzzFeed- 42 Amazing Books Written By Black Authors
Good Housekeeping- 25 Books By Black Authors to Add to Your Reading List
Some the Wiser- My Favorite Contemporary Fiction by Black Authors
Fiction is in Alphabet order by title and Non Fiction is in alphabet order by last name.
The Girl With the Louding Voice by Abi Daré
What is Not Yours is Not Yours by Helen Oyeyemi
Americanah by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie
The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison
Clap When You Land by Elizabeth Acevedo
The Crossover by Kwame Alexander
Drinking Coffee Elsewhere by ZZ Packer
If I Stay Right Here: A Novel by Chwayita Ngamlana
Invisible Man by Ralph Ellison
Salvage the Bones by Jesmyn Ward
The Souls of Black Folk by W. E. B. Du Bois
The Sun is Also a Star by Nicola Yoon
An American Marriage by Tayari Jones
Another Brooklyn: A Novel by Jacqueline Woodson
Behold the Dreamers by Imbolo Mbue
The Care and Feeding of Ravenously Hungry Girls by Anissa Gray
The Color Purple by Alice Walker
My Sister, the Serial Killer by Oyinkan Braithwaite
Everything Inside by Edwidge Danticat
Ghana Must Go by Taiye Selasi
It’s Not All Downhill from Here by Terry McMillan
Not Without Laughter by Langston Hughes
On Beauty: A Novel by Zadie Smith
A Raisin in the Sun by Lorraine Hansberry
A Lucky Man by Jamel Brinkley
Five-Carat Soul by James McBride
Grand Union by Zadie Smith
Known and Strange Things by Teju Cole
Red at the Bone by Jacqueline Woodson
The Sellout by Paul Beatty
Uncle Tom’s Children A Novella by Richard Wright
What We Lose by zinzi clemmons
Charcoal Joe by Walter Mosley
Freshwater by Akwaeke Emezi
Go Tell It on the Mountain by James Baldwin
The Mothers by Brit Bennett
Such a Fun Age by Kiley Reid
I Almost Forgot About You by Terry McMillan
Indigo by Beverly Jenkins
Waiting To Exhale by Terry McMillan
The Worst Best Man by Mia Sosa
Black Leopard, Red Wolf by Marlon James
The Fifth Season by N.K. Jemison
Gingerbread by Helen Oyeyemi
Another Country by James Baldwin
Patsy by Nicole Dennis-Benn
Queenie by Candice Carty-Williams
Their Eyes Were Watching God by Zora Neale Hurston
Finding Gideon by Eric Jerome Dickey
A Brief History of Seven Killings by Marlon James
Deacon King Kong: A Novel by James McBride
Homegoing by Yaa Gyasi
Loving Day by Mat Johnson
The Nickel Boys by Colson Whitehead
Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe
The Travelers by Regina Porter
The Underground Railroad by Colson Whitehead
The Vanishing Half by Brit BennettThe Water Dancer by Ta-Nehisi Coates
Washington Black by Esi Edugyan
The Water Dancer by Ta-Nehisi Coates
White Teeth by Zadie Smith
Beloved by Toni Morrison
The City We Became by N. K. Jemisin
Akata Witch by Nnedi Okorafor
Children of Blood and Bone by Tomi Adeyemi
The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas
The Changeling by Victor LaValle
Sing, Unburied, Sing by Jesmyn Ward
Lot: Stories by Bryan Washington
Real Life by Brandon Taylor
We Cast a Shadow by Maurice Carlos Ruffin
Kindred by Octavia E. Butler
Parable of the Sower by Octavia Butler
Version Control by Dexter Palmer
A Moonless, Starless Sky: Ordinary Women and Men Fighting Extremism in Africa by Alexis Okeowo
Brown Girl Dreaming by Jacqueline Woodson
Catalog of Unabashed Gratitude by Ross Gay
The Collected Poems of Langston Hughes
For Colored Girls Who Have Considered Suicide When the Rainbow was Enuf: a choreopoem by Ntozake Shange
Guidebook to Relative Strangers: Journeys into Race, Motherhood, and History by Camille T. Dungy
Maya Angelou: The Complete Poetry
Sister Outsider by Audre Lorde
Take This Stallion by Anaïs Duplan
Teaching My Mother How To Give Birth by Warsan Shire
salt. by Nayyirah Waheed
The Fire This Time: A New Generation Speaks About Race, edited by Jesmyn Ward
Pleasure Activism: The Politics of Feeling Good by adrienne maree brown
Biased: Uncovering the Hidden Prejudice That Shapes What We See, Think and Do by Jennifer Eberhardt
The Race Whisperer: Barack Obama and the Political Uses of Race by Melanye Price
They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us by Hanif Abdurraqib
The Light of the World by Elizabeth Alexander
I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelo
The Awkward Thoughts of W. Kamau Bell by W. Kamau Bell
Black Is the Body by Emily Bernard
Between the World and Me by Ta-Nehisi Coates
Eloquent Rage: A Black Feminist Discovers Her Superpower by Brittany Cooper
The Yellow House by Sarah M. Broom
My Bondage and My Freedom by Frederick Douglass
The Well-Read Black Girl An Anthology by Glory Edim
Locking Up Our Own: Crime and Punishment in Black America by James Forman Jr.
Bad Feminist by Roxane Gay
Hunger: A Memoir of (My) Body by Roxane Gay
The Autobiography of Malcom X by Alex Haley
Little Leaders: Bold Women in Black History by Vashti Harrison
Barracoon: The Story of the Last “Black Cargo” by Zora Neale Hurston
Some of Us Did NOT Die by June Jordan
How to Be an Antiracist by Ibram X. Kendi
Stamped from the Beginning: The Definitive History of Racist Ideas in America by Ibram X. Kendi
Heavy: An American Memoir by Kiese Laymon
Lovesong: Becoming a Jew by Julius Lester
The Mother of Black Hollywood: A Memoir by Jennifer Lewis
Unbowed by Wangari Maathai
Long Walk to Freedom: The Autobiography of Nelson Mandela
Redefining Realness by Janet Mock
We Should All Be Feminists by Chimamanda Ngozi
Born a Crime by Trevor Noah
Dreams from My Father by Barack Obama
Becoming by Michelle Obama
Air Traffic: A Memoir of Ambition and Manhood in America by Gregory Pardlo
The Misadventures of Awkward Black Girl by Issa Rae
You Can’t Touch My Hair: And Other Things I Still Have to Explain by Phoebe Robinson
Promises to Keep: How Jackie Robinson Changed America by Sharon Robinson
Writing My Wrongs: Life, Death and Redemption in an American Prison by Shaka Senghor
Assata: An Autobiography by Assata Shakur
Hidden Figures: The Untold True Story of Four African-American Women who Helped Launch Our Nation Into Space by Margot Lee Shetterly
Ordinary Light by Tracy K. Smith
Just Mercy: A Story of Justice and Redemption by Bryan Stevenson
Here for It: Or, How to Save Your Soul in America; Essays by R. Eric Thomas
We’re Going to Need More Wine: Stories That Are Funny, Complicated, and True by Gabrielle Union
The Girl Who Smiled Beads by Clemantine Wamariya and Elizabeth Weil
More Than Enough by Elaine Welteroth
The Warmth of Other Suns: The Epic Story of America’s Great Migration by Isabel Wilkerson
What I Know for Sure by Oprah Winfrey
Black Boy by Richard Wright
Drop the Ball: Achieving More by Doing Less by Tiffany Dufu
I’m Still Here: Black Dignity in a World Made for Whiteness by Austin Channing Brown
Emergent Strategy: Shaping Change, Changing Worlds by Adrienne Maree Brown
Biased: Uncovering the Hidden Prejudice That Shapes What We See, Think and Do by Jennifer Eberhardt
The Music Lesson: A Spiritual Search for Growth Through Music by Victor Wooten
The New Jim Crowby Michelle Alexander
Notes of a Native Son by James Baldwin
Thick: And Other Essays by Tressie McMillan Cottom
Women, Race, And Class by Angela Y. Davis
Feel Free: Essays by Zadie Smith
Soar: How Boys Learn, Succeed, and Develop Character by David C. Banks
Minority Leader: How to Lead from the Outside and Make Change by Stacey Abrams
A Human Being Died That Night: Confronting Apartheid’s Chief Killer by Pumla Gobodo-Madikizela
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Please feel free to contact me in order to add your favorite black authors to the list. (Fingers crossed I’ll be added soon.)
For the Conscious Writer
This is Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie. She is an award winning author from Nigeria. She speaks in this Ted talk (which is now one of the most viewed Ted talks of all time) about how we need to be careful of the single story.
Without saying too much, I find it so commendable and inspiring of her to admit that she fell into the same flaw as the people who frustrated her most. She fell for the flaw of believing the single story.
When it comes to stories, I’d never refuse a good book that was handed to me. I read books from outside of my culture regularly. But then I thought about it and the truth is, I only read them because of school or because someone well read suggested them to me. I haven’t intentionally searched for reads outside of what’s suggested to me. Which naturally leads me into the world of dominant culture.
This talk was eye opening for many reasons, but most of all, that it is time I began to intentionally search for stories outside of American and European pop culture. Then I want to listen to what is missing from the stories I’ve already been told. I want to do this because I don’t want to limit myself from learning to accept that humans, in every walk of life, are my equal.
A little poem
She goes up
and I rise like a puppy dog
trailing behind her
She goes down
and there I am sinking
like a wrecked ship
taking on too much water
Saschia Johnson
10 places I connect with humans online
I’m trying to find new places and communities on the web. I don’t usually venture out, but lately I’ve been in a search of active communities with lots of friendly connections.
I’ve signed up for Twitch because growing up, I loved watching my brother and his friends play video games. Plus, a friend I made on Instagram goes live on there so that was a great motivator to get me signed up and look around. I’m new to it, so I’m still trying to find more gamers I’m interested in following. Right now, I follow two people.
Eivlya-She’s currently playing through the entire Legend of Zelda series.
and
ItsKingKhaos– He’s quoted saying, “I’m not the best gamer but I have the best time gaming. I started the SWEATY GANG to make friends and build a community of people motivated to chase their dreams.” He’s welcoming and fun to watch.
I’m under Jaynepress. I’m still learning so bear with me.
I signed up for TikTok mostly because GaryVee suggested it for entrepreneurs. I’m kinda overwhelmed by all the buttons, but I’ll figure it out. It is fun to watch fitness videos to get ideas for workouts. I still have to find other videos I’d be interested in. On other platforms, I mostly watch educational, informative, or even motivational videos. So that’s probably what I’ll be searching for on there in terms of community. I haven’t found people I’m excited to follow just yet.
I’m just barely on LinkedIn but frankly, that site makes me feel like shit. Not sure what I’m going to do on there. I’ll slowly rebuild it, maybe, I don’t know.
I’m always looking for writing communities with pretty active members. I like WordPress communities that fall under certain hashtags, but it isn’t as active as it used to be. My favorite hashtags on WordPress are #creativewriting, #darkpoetry,#blogger, #art, #prose, #poetry, #anxiety, and #depression.
I really like Instagram and Twitter right now for writing communities. Their #amwriting community on both platforms has blown up since Nanowrimo mingled with covid, but it’s gets pretty active in November anyways.
Nanowrimo is an amazing community for writers! I have some pretty close friends I’ve made from connecting on Nanowrimo. It’s National Novel Writing Month and it’s every year in November. It’s like a game where you write a novel in a month. Very fun with so much support and education for writers of all levels.
Also there’s a couple groups on Facebook that are pretty awesome for writers. You can go in these groups and ask questions and answer questions. Some let you share your page to increase your following. Very fun.
Writers Unite
Authors and Writers Helping Each Other Grow
Aspiring Authors United!
And last but not least Medium
I have actually been struggling with finding a good community on Medium. Community wise these are the platforms I really enjoy Genius in a Bottle, Know Thyself, Heal Thyself and The Intoxicating Unhinged Mind. I think their community members are pretty active and supportive. I just feel like this platform doesn’t allow a lot of connection which is why I always add my other platforms on the bottom of my posts.
Please feel free to connect with me on other platforms to message and chat about writing. I always try my best to follow back.
Also what are your favorite communities in general? Share generously. 😀 We are all craving connection out here.
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A poem
Posted on An Idea (By Ingenious Piece)
The tides are rising and falling
at the bare chest of a woman
whose eyes are bandaged
She’s got arms and legs like an
octopus that stretch and wrap
and drown those who fail to listen
Not because they can’t hear her
but because they can
and they ignore her
She pulls them deep deep
down into a world, they can only
get out of when they heed to her
calling
To heed is no easy task from below.
The thick waters fog their vision.
They must chew through
their own arm to free themselves.
She stands thick with saliva
from the mouths of those whose
tongues tell tales that defend
complacency.
No flood will ever destroy her,
no flame will ever subdue her,
and no man will ever escape her
wrath.
Saschia Johnson
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A mirror A poem
This poem was published on the publication titled Know Thyself, Heal Thyself
Highlights by medium writers who were also fans of the poem. 🙂
The way your secrets save
my simple fingers
and your mind moves me to
be still,
leaves me wanting more
of you
Waters crash toward the
echoes of my past, and
a fountain bursts forth
through my chest that
ticks
an electric beat.
This same feeling of you
this same feeling of
your distance
when I want you most
You pour your wisdom like
a bad reaction
weeping with fluid
swollen with waters
pulsing with life and death
hanging on a strand
This
is where you meet me.
This is where you make me
divine
Thanks for Reading
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Advice from a symbolist poet on how to love a symbolist poet.
These days more and more symbolist poets are stepping out and showing their true colors. Some of you may have had a loved one step into the world of symbolist poetry and feel as though you have lost touch. Some of you might have found a symbolist poet you’re interested in on your timeline. I’m here to let you know, there’s a sliver of hope when it comes to connecting with the symbolist poet of your dreams.
When you’re outside of the symbolist community, it can feel overwhelming. You might even feel like you have to compete with other symbolists who seem to know exactly what to say to your symbolist poet. Those damn poets, they are good with both words and emotions, but let me tell you, there is hope. There is a way to connect with your poet. There is more than one way to cultivate a strong connection with your poet and I’m here to share these ways with you.
First things first, since I am a female poet, this will be advice on how to connect with a female poet. I’m not a man, so I’m not sure I could write an honest piece on how to connect with a male symbolist poet.
Let’s get started, shall we?
Symbolist poets study humans down to the nitty gritty. They learn to feel everything because if they didn’t, they would not grow as poets. So, the first way to cultivate a strong connection with your poet, is to know that you are valuable and you are enough. Yes, poets like beautiful things, but what they appreciate more is honest things. If you’re trying to connect with your poet while having a false sense of self, she will know. Your best bet is to know you’re worthy with or without her so she doesn’t feel you’re being fraudulent right off the bat.
Charles Bukowski isn’t popular among writers because he’s an asshole who slept around. Ok that might have something to do with it, but mostly he’s popular among writers because he told the truth. As a writer, he was open and honest about all of his feelings. He wrote about how bad he felt for the shitty things he did. He wrote about how empty he felt at times. As a writer, Bukowski was an open book. He was open even about something as small as the shame he felt after road rage. Don’t confuse a poet’s love for Buk’s honesty, with the idea of craving a rockstar boyfriend. This can be applied to any poet really. So the point is, just be honest about everything. Poets crave to hear you be honest about what you’re feeling.
Ok, so this is where honesty can get tricky. Some people think you should always be honest. Some people think you should not tell your wife when she looks fat. I’m here to say, you’ve got to learn how to use your honesty. Chances are, this symbolist poet already knows the truth. Chances are she values your opinion. So how can you learn to use your honesty? If you feel like you’re telling her the truth just to prove that you will, that’s not honesty. Being honest with your poet takes a lot of being honest with yourself. Self-acceptance is required in order to learn how to be honest with your poet.
If your poet is into you or has already committed to you, it is vital that you learn to accept yourself for who you are. Even if you are courting a poet, when you don’t accept yourself, your lack of acceptance can come out toward her in underhanded remarks. You may not even notice that you’re doing it. Be aware of the parts of you that you’re ashamed of and then love those parts. Do this over and over again, so you don’t unintentionally hurt your poet.
Don’t ever underestimate the power of snacks. Learn her snacks. Know her snacks. Gift her with her most loved snacks. Trust me on this one.
Show up. Keep doing it for her. Do it when she’s sad. Do it when she’s happy and everything is going great for her. Show up when she doesn’t need you at all. Just show up. This will cultivate a sense of trust. Symbolist poets have an interesting understanding of the human condition. They understand the strong desires inbred in our DNA. The chance of you abandoning them are always high in a symbolist poet’s mind because that’s reality. I’m not saying they have abandonment issues but they are always prepared to be abandoned. Prove them wrong.
They have thoughts running through their minds on vast levels on a regular basis. They are recalling and connecting poetry, poets, images, movies, history, occult knowledge, mysteries of the universe, serial killers, astrology, what time they should post, a lecture they heard ten years ago, last time they showered, ok you get it. So let them get a few things off their chest by listening to them ramble, so they can move on with their lives.
This one is not easy. It sounds really easy. Who doesn’t want to be loved, right? Symbolist poets love entirely. They have and are always learning to accept all parts of themselves. They are constantly learning and relearning themselves so, the way they love you is going to be some of the most pure love you’ll ever receive. They aren’t perfect by any means. But chances are, they’ve already taken notes on your body language, on your choice of words, on your interests and dreams and can pretty much love you exactly where you are. It’s going to feel real weird. It’s going to feel almost unreal, like when people just give away good quality free shit. With free shit there’s always a catch, but with symbolist poets, this isn’t the case. Self acceptance is required in order to grow as a symbolist poet and self acceptance is the root of unconditional love. They are always working on self acceptance. So, if you’re questioning whether your symbolist poet will always love you, you can stop questioning, because she will always love you. Soak up her love while following the guidelines above, and you’re golden.
Now chances are, you could do all of these things right to a T, but if she’s not interested, and voices that to you, your best option is to respect her and let her be. Letting a symbolist poet go when she asks is one of the most divine acts of love and she will respect you far more for it.
become a symbolist poet yourself. You know what they say, “If you can’t beat em, join em.”
Thanks for reading,
Your humble symbolist poet,
Saschia Johnson
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