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Today I had to accept that I’m doing more than enough. In life, so many
people will project their insecurities on you, on me on whoever is closest to
them. It’s usually unintentional which means I’m also someone who does this. In
a culture where overworking is rewarded with empty hearts and mediocre bank
accounts, you gotta know your priorities. Plus, you gotta show up with your
boundaries and your courage and you gotta be intentional about saving your
energy for the things that are most important to you. Work is important because
it pays your bills but for me, my loved ones are more important than a
paycheck. On the other hand, the monetary reward for my hard work is nice,
because it allows me to love my loved ones in many ways including giving me the
freedom to love myself. Finding a job where your priorities can be respected
can be life-changing.

To return to where I started, I got to accept that I’m doing enough. I had a
hard time Friday evening because I’m pretty sure this is the first year, I
could not properly celebrate Veterans Day with my partner. And celebrating him
is one of my most favorite things to do in our marriage. I still got him
something and we went to dinner, but I was so wiped out by the time it was
dinner that I couldn’t fully enjoy my time with him. I did my best and I showed
I cared. I need to accept that.

The relationship you have with your priorities will change along with you.
Adjust. Show up. Use your words and do your best. and remember

I Think You’re Great!

Wanna see the post that came up and reminded me to be gentle on myself ?

Happy Veterans Day!!

My grandfather was a veteran and cooked for the fire house by the time I was born. I have great memories of spending days with him, walking to the fire house, getting sodas for 50 cents from the vending machine. He took good care of us when we were youngsters. I remember watching Tremors with him. It’s funny how watching it as a kid it was so scary. Now I watch it and can’t help but laugh at the graphics back then. Things change but the positive impact his presence left on me still lives in my heart.

What is writing? Writing is telepathy.

Stephen King

Stephen King has the best quotes for writers. I found this quote and then had to look up the definition for telepathy to make sure I was understanding the word properly. So, here’s the definition,
“the supposed communication of thoughts or ideas by means other than the known senses.” And now that I read the definition I can fully agree. The act of writing has been such an enlightening experience for me that I can only be convinced that there’s other senses. My first project was a historical fiction novel, and the research began finding me. It was all so fascinating. Reminds me of a line in an essay titled The Door by EB White,

He crossed (carefully) the room, the thick carpet under him softly, and went toward the door carefully, which was glass and he could see himself in it, and which, at his approach, opened to allow him to pass through; and beyond he half expected to find one of the old doors that he had known, perhaps the one with the circle, the one with the girl her arms outstretched in loveliness and beauty before him. But he saw instead a moving stairway, and descended in light (he kept thinking) to the street below and to the other people. As he stepped off, the ground came up slightly, to meet his foot.

https://americanliterature.com/author/eb-white/short-story/the-door

There’s millions of new worlds to explore and writing allows it to all unfold at your fingertips. It can unfold so quickly it’s as if the story is finding you.

What about you? What’s your experience with writing or the arts in general?

Today I was reminded to inspire myself, and to find that fiery passion of mine. I’ve been focused to much on other things lately that my focus shifted away from the things that light up mu soul. My heart is full, and I’m more grateful than I’ve ever been. It’s strange really. listen to this, sitting in my current thoughts right now helped me to see that there’s a big difference between a full and greatful heart vs a lit up soul. I’ve never really thought about that.

I gotta find that fire buried in me.

2 Artist dates down, 8 more left to go.

So keeping commitments aren’t always fun. Today, I had to drag myself out of my house. I was tired and grumpy which is probably why an artist date was my families best option. I decided to look around the craft store, didn’t find much. So I went to the next store and found a handful of small things that brought me joy. A Kawaii book with both coloring and how-to-draw Kawaii. I walked over to the local café and colored for a while before got my purchase. They gave it to me for free AND then a friendly woman give me a couple of books and thanked me for the joy I bring to the world. It was nice of her. (And I just showed her where all the plugs were. lol) I appreciate all the kindness I was shown today and I hope it continues all around me.

To be completely honest, I would have still been ok with staying home even after all the gifts and compliments. But what’s more important is showing up for myself even when I don’t want to. You know why? Because I’m not gunna be out here forgetting about myself. It’s too easy for me to do that. I have too much to give to allow myself to be so depleted that I have nothing left. It’s my time. It’s my time to shine. To love the way I love to love. To show up for me and for those around me. I’m passionate about this life I live and it brings me so much joy to walk beside those who find the passion with me. So if this is what I have to do to live the bestest most amazing life that the good Lord has to offer me, I’ll go on all the solitude/artist dates I have to.

Wanna take the challenge with me?

There’s 8 weeks left in 2022!! Join me by taking yourself on an artist date once a week for the rest of the year. Share with me. Artist dates are only allowed to be done in solitude. If you’d like to learn more about the Artist date, I wrote a blog about it titled “Inspire Yourself” you can find it here.

Let’s finish 2022 out strong creatives!!

Sidenote: I made an booboo last week, I thought there was ten weeks left last Sunday but there was only 9 weeks. I updated it.

Don’t forget to like, share, follow let’s see if I stay committed to my artist dates till 2023

I’ve been focused lately on playing catch up with everything we’ve been missing out on over the past two years. I’m starting with the basics and I’ll hopefully get to the point where I can get us ahead with some things. It’s easy for us to go without for a some time, but I’m grateful that we can provide ourselves with some new socks, pjs, family nights, decent hygiene products, and all the fun stuff that gets put off when the funds are low. And while I’m at it, I also want to make sure I’m intentionally taking care of myself. Since before my little one was born, I’ve put off a lot of things that bring me joy. I’m trying my best to make the best of this time. I am very much enjoying myself, my life, and the direction it’s headed.

This post reminds me of an affirmation:

Everything I need to create infinite abundance is within me. Living in abundance allows me to take care of all those I love.

I’m in heaven right now with Beyonce and Taylor Swifts new albums. Everyday those two albums are played too or from work. I’m the type that plays the same album for months. I have to share my three favs

First Taylor Swifts Vigilante Shit

And the second two Beyonce That Girl and Cozy

What albums are you listening to right now?