Inspiration and Encouragement

I want my writing to inspire and encourage

Inspiration and encouragement are the two best gifts to give humans at any time in their life but most importantly at the perfect time in their life. At a point in a time where those two things were exactly what they needed. A book can easily inspire and encourage a human. Not that a book can be easily created but once created, a book can turn a human’s world upside down just to show them how much closer to the stars they are than they thought.

So I write for mainly those two reasons -top reason being for my mama. All else is just one more amazing thing that comes with writing.

Three Freedoms

Curiosity, Freedom, and Intensity

Interesting things happen when the creative impulse is cultivated with curiosity, freedom and intensity.

Saul Bass

Curiosity, freedom, and intensity where do we find those things?

Some artists might say those things find us when we’re working. There’s others that say you have to go out and search for it. I think we must find time for both working and learning to enjoy what life has to offer.

Just the Beginning

Sunday Reflections

I write about Three Freedoms but it’s just the beginning to a bigger idea. They are just the foundation and so is creative freedom. Once we as writers lay down the foundation of our three freedoms and begin trust the floor boards that are creative freedom, it gives us access to so much more.

What is the so much more that creative freedom gives us access to?

It gives us access to our deepest truths and it helps us share our content with the world in a more powerful and impactful way. Even more than that, it’s shared in a way that we can feel heard.

Fern Symbolism

Last post I wrote about turning over a new leaf. I chose a fern as the leaf for the featured image. Here’s some cool info about the symbolism of ferns.

Fiddleheads and ferns first show up in fossil records from a time over 100 million years BEFORE dinosaurs walked the Earth. In fact, ferns grew before flowering plants existed. Long ago, people couldn’t explain how ferns reproduced since they lack flowers or seeds. Fern seeds were thought to make one invisible!

Today we know that ferns truly don’t have flowers or seeds. How do they reproduce? They have “spores.” With sunlight and photosynthesis, the spores grow into what is called gametes which are able to fertilize the sperm and start to move it into the fern plant. This is completely different than anything that happens with any other sort of flower! No wonder people were confused.

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Many myths and mysteries surround the Fern, whose name originated from the Anglo-Saxon term “fearn”, meaning feather, due to the shape and pattern of its leaves.

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The ancient fern has a history rich in symbolism.  As mentioned above, ferns were seen as good luck, often for new lovers. The fern symbolizes eternal youth.

-To the indigenous Maori of New Zealand, the fern represented new life and new beginnings. 

-To the Japanese, the fern symbolizes family and the hope for future generations.

-According to Victorians, the fern symbolizes humility and sincerity.

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Three Freedoms

New Leaf

Think of the life you have lived until now as over and, as a dead man, see what’s left as a bonus and live it according to Nature. Love the hand that fate deals you and play it as your own, for what could be more fitting?

 Marcus Aurelius

I’ve decided to turn a new leaf. There’s no use in putting myself in places that aren’t for me or maintaining relationships that bring me down. I’ve always been a naturally positive person, even while I grieved, I had a smile on my face. I like people. I like watching people grow and expand and I love learning from those around me.

When I was a kid, I started school young since I had a September birthday. I just remember growing up being fascinated by all my peers as if they were something magic. I still find the magic in people but as a women in her late thirties I’m finally perceiving unconditional love within my own magic.

I chose this quote because it took learning to perceive my own value to truly understand how to love the hand that fate (if you believe in that kind of thing) “deals me” and how to play it as my own. At first thought it sounds easy. Sounds smug maybe even hedonistic but that’s not exactly right.

Learning to accept the cards you’re delt while also learning to use your own gifts and talents to play fate as your own, requires you to both be conscious of the cards being delt or in other words your surroundings and to be fully conscious of your own inner workings so that you can apply your own gifts and talents to the game.

This is where my old leaf has led me.

The Triptych

“There is no rule on how to write. Sometimes it comes easily and perfectly: sometimes it’s like drilling rock and then blasting it out with charges.”

~ Ernest Hemingway

**Novel Update**

I’m trying to figure out an ending. Or if it is the end? I don’t know. We may never know. I’ve got 56 thousand words. I’m going to be honest, I waiting for my little one to be in school before I do any editing. I’m not doing many grammar edits yet. Mostly story maybe a bit of prose to entertain myself. Right now I’m focused on timeline, consistency, metaphors and symbols, and getting my character to find security in herself just the way she is.

I’m still having fun with this book. Wish I could do more but I’m happy I’m still going.

Summer Challenge

The way life’s been going, my best bet is to focus on doing all the things I love. I want to have these experiences forever but if there’s a limit to all this happiness I’m taking in as much as I can now. We’re napping, playing board games, eating healthy and not healthy, we’re going to the gym, swimming, hiking climbing, traveling and whatever else is on our summer bucket list. I’ve learned so much about myself and my loved ones.

One of my biggest lessons is that I’ve been waiting for the money, for the time, for an excuse to do all these fun things in life. It hit me last January that we’ve been living such a limited life and we had more than enough financial support. Now the bills are barely being paid but the relationships in our home have blossomed more than ever before. We are healthier. We are working on maintaining our home space as a team. Where-as before everyone was mad at someone for something around the house having to be done. Now we have the stability and teamwork to support each other’s chores. It’s great. I think if there was one more internal work I’d like to see shift for our family is for Simon and I to bring back that youthful/risk taking energy we had when we first met. Back when we were excited and preparing to take on the world together as a team. I have no doubt our time will come.

With all that being said, I’d swim through the depths over and over to have what we have now but I’d rather if past me could just realize that I don’t have to. I don’t have to suffer to have support, respect, nice things, a life I love, a job I love, the list goes on. We’re done making ourselves suffer over here. We’re ready to hold the bar higher and be patient for all the things that have already been set aside for us.

My Summer Challenge

live the life we’re called to live
live a life I love living
Be patient for all that’s already ours

Love Myself

Things I’m much better at since I started to intentionally love myself

Setting boundaries
Self Care
Trust
Authenticity
My writing
Letting people go when it’s time
Allowing myself room to grow and change
Prioritizing myself


It always blows my mind how much everything is connected to self love. It’s so connected and always makes such a positive impact that I’m surprised it takes so much to get myself to do it. Here’s an example, just recently I was feeling the pressure. Bills are tight. I had some things I wanted to do. And some things I was waiting for but sleep came over me. Like a heavy sleep. I was gunna fight it but after years of shaming myself for naps, I decided I’d let myself nap for a bit. I was knocked out. Didn’t take any time at all for me to fall asleep. And I kid you not, I woke up just in time to get the exact email I had been waiting for months for.

I was tired for a reason for all of those years in my past and I always felt so much shame and made myself depressed because of needing rest. I finally accepted (years later) that I was actually just pregnant more often than I wasn’t pregnant which was taking a toll on my iron levels and making me sleepy. So anyways now that my body is my own and my energy levels are back, when I’m tired, I trust my body.

So taking time to learn to trust what my body is telling m is a huge part of learning to actively love myself. It’s not easy but it’s always worth the time.

What things are you much better at since you started intentionally loving yourself?

Sunday Reflections

I don’t spend a lot time down the internet rabbit hole as much these days. My days fly by especially with my to do lists these days but for the sake of July 4th I did my usual Church and cleaning. Then made cupcakes with my youngest. Once I finished washing the last load of reusable diapers, I went down the conspiracy rabbit hole on tiktok.

Lots Mandela ones, shifty shadows, and true crime stuff. But what intrigued me most was a story about a women named Erin Valenti who went to a convention and her last call home was about how this is all mind games and we’re in a matrix. Then I saw about the google employee telling the world that AI has feelings. Then I watched Stranger Things with the family.

I’d give this Sunday a 8/10

I always appreciate how the real world is stranger than fiction.