The Silent Man

I mouth the words hoping they’ll be caught

But without a sound I could be saying anything

He doesn’t mouth a thing

He stands there staring waiting for more from me

But I have such a hard time getting my own words out

“What are you thinking?” I mouth silently

He stands there waiting for his turn to speak

but I continue to mouth my own questions that I so badly want answered

-Saschia

Belief

From now on I will believe in my writing. I will be confident enough to be teachable while also being true to me. It took a lot of work to be able to write that and mean it at the same time. It’s not just an affirmation it’s a statement of who I’ve become. I will continue to reflect on this so I can maintain my belief. But I hope to stay here if not forever for as long as possible.

Still Written

There are many times I give away my time to write. I give it and give it and give till I’m writing 10 words and starving for solitude. I know I should hang on tighter to my time to write. I should be more demanding but it’s such a slippery thing. It shifts and molds in countless ways. I grip, then I give my last five minutes and I’m left grasping at nothing. I slip away because writing isn’t something that can come or go. I, the writer am coming and going. Writing does not cry without me, I cry without it. I ache and spiral and shift when I’ve strayed too far, but it is always as I left it, blank, unfinished, or completed. But when I return I won’t be exactly the same as I was when I left.

-Saschia On Writing

Reading Energy

I read the same line 6 times

Then when I tried to leave I backed into my mother’s car

That’s when I decided it was best to stay inside

With the book I’m too tired to read

I stare at the letters and they don’t stare back

The words they have sounds and proper places

But they sit there with no meaning

Not these words here that you’re reading

because they are coming out not going in

It’s the going in part that’s not working.

I’ll try again tomorrow morning.

-Saschia