The world goes on without me
And I’m just fine with that
My toesies are tucked away
My heart wide open as the ocean
And my mind mine to explore
Let the world go on without us
Sit with me
-Sasch
Self-doubt
Self-doubt is a bitch
She sneaks up on you with questions
Simple logical questions
And then she brings in reason
And your well-meaning friends
That’s when everything you wanted to do becomes a mountain
Do it anyway
Fuck self-doubt and all her questions
Emotionally Absent
It’s like
Shouting into the wind
I shared and I shared
And I yelled and I screamed
Not even an echo returned
Just breath
Not even silence
And I noticed the other day
How you gave me a hint
Just a tiny peak inside your mind
All for a fuck
You knew my weakness
I’m learning though.
I see now
how you’ve made it so far
Without being present
-Sasch
2020 Encouragement
I approve of you
I approve of your workout
And your smile
And the way you raise your babies
I see you learning and thinking things through as usual
To be specific
I like how you’re learning to trust yourself
How you can be honest about your shortcomings
And compromise with clear set boundaries
Let’s keep going
Her Approval
She is filled to the brim
With her own approval
There were days when she looked for it in others
But one day she decided the only one she needed approval from was herself
He Is
He is something I want to myself
He is real and innocent
He reminds me of Christmas morning
The moment you unwrap the only toy you asked for
Or that burst of energy you’ve been waiting for since noon
He’s a tight squeeze on a rough day
And just the words you need to hear on good day
He is me
And I am him
A collection of all the things that brought us together
-Sasch
Feeding the Blank Page
There are days when I’m down
When my tear ducts ache
There are days when I stand behind my inner warrior
So my fire can fight the good fight
And there are days when I crave whiskey and risky behavior
But most days I just feed the blank page
That’s how things stay in perspective for me
-Saschia
Bee Talk
Mid winter
Is too cold to show you
The flowers I’ve collected from
But stay a while
Let’s get drunk on honey
And maybe you’ll find
the remnants of pollen
left between my thighs
-Sasch
Nothing but Human
Walls cluttered with the sex I hid myself in
Heart so full I forgot about myself
Mind so conflicted nothing mattered
I kicked the pedestal and let myself get lost in immorality
The mortal in me forgotten
Until I fell face first by the hands of men I never trusted
That’s when I lost respect for your rules
That’s when I gained respect for myself
A far fall a slow rise
-Saschia
Some Say
When the time comes
You might know it
Or maybe it won’t come
Some say it’s all already planned
That our biology chooses
Is it the no that’s freedom ?
Is it the giving in?
I hope to not know the answer any time soon
-Saschia
