It’s ok to take time to learn. We live in a world that makes it hard to just be like, “Oh, I need to do more research on that before I make a choice in the matter.” There’s a lot I don’t understand that’s going on these days and there are some topics I don’t even know where to start to become more informed about them. There’s always so much more for me to learn and so many shifts in perspectives for me to experience. I’m ok with saying I gotta go do some more research but sometimes it’s scary for me to say that. Sometimes I feel like people scoff and expect me to have known it all ahead of time.

To get more personal, I just stepped into the non profit world and it is a ton of new information. A ton. And the amount of layers to the entire thing can make me feel so small. Thankfully there’s also a lot of meetups and there’s even nonprofits that help nonprofits thrive. So I sign up for everything I can show up to. I take advice and try my best to understand everything coming my way. But the point is I don’t know everything. I can’t know it all. And I’m literally not supposed to know it all because we are supposed to be run by a board. To be completely honest, it’s scary to be in this whole new world and have to rely on outside support to see success.

So I’m reminding myself and anyone else who’ll listen, it’s ok to not know. It’s ok to sign up for all the extra help classes and ask people what they think or if they have time to share some wisdom over coffee. Some people aren’t going to have time to support you in your endeavors and that’s ok. We are all out here literally trying to survive. But I can tell you, some people are going to show up. They are going to take time out of their busy lives and they are going to share their wisdom with you. And it’s a wonderful thing how valuable their wisdom and support becomes when you’re the new kid on the block.

I’d like to wrap this up by reminding my future self that people won’t know it all especially when they’re starting out. Future Ms. Saschia Jayne Johnson, make sure you find time to be the one who shares, cares, and shows up. You’re kindness might be their only bridge to success.

My head is killing me. It started hurting around 11 and it stopped for a bit while I was in the shower in the dark but then came back. One of my long long time ago exboyfriends taught me about a pressure point between our pointer and thumb and that’s what helped for the tiny bit of time that I was relieved. Pressure points are so interesting to me. They kinda remind me of Rhizomes, Here’s a quick definition of what a rhizome is from Britannica.com

rhizome, also called creeping rootstalk, horizontal underground plant stem capable of producing the shoot and root systems of a new plant. Rhizomes are used to store starches and proteins and enable plants to perennate (survive an annual unfavourable season) underground. In addition, those modified stems allow the parent plant to propagate vegetatively (asexually), and some plants, such as poplars and various bamboos, rely heavily on rhizomes for that purpose. In plants such as water lilies and many ferns, the rhizome is the only stem of the plant. In such cases, only the leaves and flowers are readily visible. Notably, the rhizomes of some species—including ginger, turmeric, and lotus—are edible and valued for their culinary applications.

And here’s the definition or nerve from google:

 a whitish fiber or bundle of fibers that transmits impulses of sensation to the brain or spinal cord, and impulses from these to the muscles and organs.

Now I’m the type of person to make connections where there are none but for some reason Nerves and Rhizomes seem to function similarly besides the whole reproduction part. Unless we’re talking about cells, then that might work. We could go real far and throw in the frequency of our vibrations but I think that’s going too far. So let’s reel it back in. Rhizomes are under ground. Our Nerves are under the skin. Rhizomes branch out under ground. Nerves branch out throughout the body. Nerves help us with survival. The roots of a Rhizome help them survive. If you lose a nerve you won’t die. If a Rhizome loses a root it won’t die.

https://www.biologyonline.com/dictionary/rhizome

I’m no expert but I find our similarities to plants and trees interesting. Thanks for joining me in this conversation that was inspired by my headache.

I’m so interested in these Float tanks they have out there these days. They’ve been around for a while but they are more accessible now. I want to try them out. I hear some people have pretty cool experiences. I just know, I love baths. and I love when the lights are out while I’m in the bath and I love dunking my head under when the lights are out. So I think I’ll really enjoy one of these Float Tanks.

With all the things we are bombarded with these days, it seems like this should be a normal thing like going to get your nails done or going to the gym. There’s always technology and ads and some event I have to get to or a new lesson I want to listen to. But I don’t decompress nearly as often as I go out in search of stimulation.

Now that I’m writing this, I realize I really do need to focus more on decompressing from it all. My goal for this year is to go floating at least once. That’s my 2022 goal, to decompress more often and to go floating at least once. Ok now let’s see if I can make it happen.

Today I stayed home with my little one and worked on my novel. I’m working on the protagonist community and their belief system. I think developing my protagonist more will help me with details in the rest of the story. Especially since the protagonist is an entire community rather than just one individual.

I was pretty tired with a headache today but my oldest and I managed to get the grocery shopping done and clean out the fridge. I’m surprised I got anything done today. My head was killing me all day. It’s surprising to me that I painted with my youngest, wrote, grocery shopped, and cleaned out the fridge.

I’d say today was productive and went well.