There are days when I’m down
When my tear ducts ache
There are days when I stand behind my inner warrior
So my fire can fight the good fight
And there are days when I crave whiskey and risky behavior
But most days I just feed the blank page
That’s how things stay in perspective for me
-Saschia
Mid winter
Is too cold to show you
The flowers I’ve collected from
But stay a while
Let’s get drunk on honey
And maybe you’ll find
the remnants of pollen
left between my thighs
-Sasch
Walls cluttered with the sex I hid myself in
Heart so full I forgot about myself
Mind so conflicted nothing mattered
I kicked the pedestal and let myself get lost in immorality
The mortal in me forgotten
Until I fell face first by the hands of men I never trusted
That’s when I lost respect for your rules
That’s when I gained respect for myself
A far fall a slow rise
-Saschia
When the time comes
You might know it
Or maybe it won’t come
Some say it’s all already planned
That our biology chooses
Is it the no that’s freedom ?
Is it the giving in?
I hope to not know the answer any time soon
-Saschia
It may seem I’m falling away
I probably am
My stomach aches
My mind hurts from my own roaming eyes
From shards slipped between each fold
I can promise you I really don’t want to
Fall away, that is
But this shift is making me uncomfortable
This unreliability scares me
Deep deep in my bones
And so I refocus on being the constant
In my own life
Which makes me busy
And sleepy
-Saschia
Their duffle bags
Packed
Always packed
My chest rises on their arrival
And falls on their departure
It aches to think that
I’ve done it, again
To me
To my children
I’ve no plan for this
My few freedoms
in someone else’s hands
My patience wearing thin
Behind my smile
kind words
And a grin
-Saschia
Things divided
Silverware blankets
random living supplies
But you can’t divide children
Here’s your mail
And your time
But these humans
we have to share
We could be fair about it
But let’s be honest
Life’s not fair
Values aren’t shared
So this is yours
And that is mine
See you the next time
we share the kids
-Saschia
If I could
I would take your anxieties wrap them up tight and throw them in the ocean
I’d take your sadness and carry them to the grave
And I’d fight every single battle you were too scared to face
But I wasn’t placed here to be your savior
I can’t wrap my hands around your feelings
No matter how bad I want to
So throw your anxieties, carry your sadness, and face your battles
And tell me everything because I want to hear you speak of your thoughts and feelings
and I want to hear how you conquer them
-Sasch
It always matters
it’s always a big deal
hearts souls sex
chance encounters
those skipped heartbeats
grasp em
collect them
hang em on the wall
as reminders of the times
you’ve once lived
-Sasch
I am selfish with my love for the world
For you
For us
I will love you inside out
I will push and prod and poke
I will release and catch
And give you space
All to make the world a better place
Because that’s
what I would want
For myself
-Saschia
