The search for the best undergrad program to get a BA in Psychology that fits my lifestyle continues. I spent this morning talking to three different schools and just felt so defeated. I started feeling myself sink down into those low vibes that just don’t help in these situations.
To keep myself afloat,
I went through my “living my best life” toolkit: a sweet treat, sit in the sun, make popcorn and watch Ironheart, play a game on my phone and listen to YouTube; that’s just a few. I decided Ironheart was my best option, so I got the oil heated for popcorn, and for some reason, I wanted more. More of something that these colleges weren’t providing me with, even though they preach it left and right.
Before I tell you what that is, I want to share that I have no quit in me. There wasn’t one part of me in this moment that thought giving up was an option. Finding a way was and always will be my best option. So, with that being said, let’s continue.
I started to find myself feeling stuck.
I felt lost. What options are left for me? I feel like I’m sitting on my hands waiting for the three schools to get back to me. Now I want to explain; I understand that all this is normal, but goodness, it feels like I’m up against a system that isn’t human at all. I know others have done it and have done amazingly well. They worked, parented, and still made the honor roll, but something just doesn’t seem right here. I feel as though my honor roll status has gained me zero leverage. I find myself questioning the point of a GPA altogether.
Then voices began to taunt me, I told you so. Yeah, it’s not worth it.
The crazy thing is:
People have disregarded dreams throughout history. BUT the important thing to remember ☝🏽 is that those critical voices are the smallest part when it comes to bringing our dreams to reality.
But wait there’s good news!
We can redirect our energy away from the negative voices and focus on new ways to reach our goals! That, my friends, is the gift of life. The gift we get to learn about ourselves and this absolutely amazing world we live in.
When I redirected my focus, that’s when I figured out what I was looking for:
Possibility
I wanted more possibility. How can I make this work? And so here I am sharing with you the same word that shifted my focus from feeling stuck to re-energized and motivated to keep going!
I leave you with this quote from Albert Einstein. He refers to science, but I think it can be equally applied to life.
“To raise new questions, new possibilities, to regard old problems from a new angle, requires creative imagination and marks real advance in science.”