A place where you can be human.
Let’s start with this,
We don’t have to earn rest. We rest when we are tired,
but let me tell you,
I earned this weekend off. Phew! I’m expanding into new avenues, and I’m doing it all step by step and with very little solitude. I feel like I’m expanding so many things at once that the steps I’m taking feel so small. So if you’re out there trying a bunch of new things all at once this summer, I see you. We got this!
“As soon as you trust yourself, you will know how to live.” –Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
This is one of my biggest challenges. I’m getting better, though. I will stand my ground, but often when I walk away, I’ll Google my stance just in case. I’m getting better though.
By facing the honest truth.
There are times when I’m wrong, but I have no shame in admitting when I’m wrong. And that’s exactly how I stand my ground. I think to myself, maybe I am wrong, but I can be honest and change my stance with new information. Right now, in this moment, it doesn’t feel right; not from my past experiences, not from my education, and not from how it’s sounding.
That’s what works for me.
Do you have no trouble trusting yourself? Or are you like me and learning new ways to trust yourself every day?
My writing tunes tonight.
Thanks to my writing friend for the inspo!
“You and I are essentially infinite choice-makers. In every moment of our existence, we are in that field of all possibilities where we have access to an infinity of choices. ” -Deepak Chopra
I’m increasing my workload, so now I’m wiped! I’m glad that today I was able to be more productive than I have been. At the same time, I’m glad I made the choice to take a moment for myself. It was very grounding and brought me so much peace. These moments of rest give me what I need to keep going. If you haven’t seen, I posted a picture of this moment and shared it on my Instagram page.
Side note: I follow writers back! If you have an Instagram, I’d love to connect. If you’re feeling chatty, send me a message to chat about writing; that would really inspire me.
The search for the best undergrad program to get a BA in Psychology that fits my lifestyle continues. I spent this morning talking to three different schools and just felt so defeated. I started feeling myself sink down into those low vibes that just don’t help in these situations.
To keep myself afloat,
I went through my “living my best life” toolkit: a sweet treat, sit in the sun, make popcorn and watch Ironheart, play a game on my phone and listen to YouTube; that’s just a few. I decided Ironheart was my best option, so I got the oil heated for popcorn, and for some reason, I wanted more. More of something that these colleges weren’t providing me with, even though they preach it left and right.
Before I tell you what that is, I want to share that I have no quit in me. There wasn’t one part of me in this moment that thought giving up was an option. Finding a way was and always will be my best option. So, with that being said, let’s continue.
I felt lost. What options are left for me? I feel like I’m sitting on my hands waiting for the three schools to get back to me. Now I want to explain; I understand that all this is normal, but goodness, it feels like I’m up against a system that isn’t human at all. I know others have done it and have done amazingly well. They worked, parented, and still made the honor roll, but something just doesn’t seem right here. I feel as though my honor roll status has gained me zero leverage. I find myself questioning the point of a GPA altogether.
Then voices began to taunt me, I told you so. Yeah, it’s not worth it.
The crazy thing is:
People have disregarded dreams throughout history. BUT the important thing to remember ☝🏽 is that those critical voices are the smallest part when it comes to bringing our dreams to reality.
We can redirect our energy away from the negative voices and focus on new ways to reach our goals! That, my friends, is the gift of life. The gift we get to learn about ourselves and this absolutely amazing world we live in.
When I redirected my focus, that’s when I figured out what I was looking for:
I wanted more possibility. How can I make this work? And so here I am sharing with you the same word that shifted my focus from feeling stuck to re-energized and motivated to keep going!
I leave you with this quote from Albert Einstein. He refers to science, but I think it can be equally applied to life.
“To raise new questions, new possibilities, to regard old problems from a new angle, requires creative imagination and marks real advance in science.”
“Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe. ” -Gail Devers
Today’s Random Thought (That probably isn’t so random)
Some people love their work so much, they have no idea how hard they are actually working. The crazy part is their love makes it look easy, so people around them also don’t realize how hard they are working. This is why it’s important to learn to validate your own efforts. Know when you need to rest and know when it’s time to grind. (I don’t know if we’re grinding right now, but I’m just saying).
What do think? Do you validate your hard work? Nice work! You really are doing amazing! -just wanted to take a moment to validate your hard work for you.
This Saturday tidbit is brought to you with inspiration in mind. Today’s tidbit comes from Cameron Dokey.
I feel deeply that a story is a living, breathing creation.
As a writer, I do my best to write in a way that allows the story to become intimate for each person who reads it. The alchemy of the mind and the way our imagination can become a lens for us to see the world have both fascinated me since I was a young girl. People are divine creatures who make me feel so many things all at once. This tidbit reminds me of the depths to which storytelling can take us as writers.
“A story is alive, as you and I are. It is rounded by muscle and sinew. Rushed with blood. Layered with skin, both rough and smooth. At its core lies soft marrow of hard, white bone. A story beats with the heart of every person who has ever strained ears to listen. On the breath of the storyteller, it soars. Until its images and deeds become so real you can see them in the air, shimmering like oases on the horizon line. A story can fly like a bee, so straight and swift you catch only the hum of its passing. Or move so slowly it seems motionless, curled in upon itself like a snake in the sun. It can vanish like smoke before the wind. Linger like perfume in the nose. Change with every telling, yet always remain the same.” – Cameron Dokey
I hope that you enjoyed today’s Midday Muse. Join me next Saturday for some brand new inspiration!
I have not an ounce of doubt in the power women hold.
🎖 I see you rising, ladies. Keep going. 🏅
Happy Independence Day.
🧨We have a right to our bodies.
🧨We have a right to safe spaces.
🧨We have a right to explore this life and stay rooted in the places we feel most whole.
🧨We have a right to protect our children.
🧨We have a right to fight for us.
Let’s keep fighting for our sovereignty in spirit, in body, and in truth.
One of the things I started doing to manage my stress during school was to play video games. I started playing this game called MyOasis. It’s supposed to help with anxiety relief and relax and calm your mind. Things are not nearly as hectic, but I still log in to decompress from the day. I probably won’t use it as much these next few weeks but we’ll see.
So there’s an island and animals. You can love on the animals for extra hearts. You can change the weather. My favorite is the game where you listen to and replay music notes. The only thing is I prefer to listen to YouTube while I play, so I don’t usually hear the notes. Overall, I enjoy playing the game to relax.
If you’d like to check it out, here’s link.
Do you have a favorite game you play to relax ?
“If a writer stops observing he is finished. Experience is communicated by small details intimately observed.” – Ernest Hemingway
When it comes to writing, it’s interesting how we can connect the dots in a story from the details given rather than being outright told things all the time. There’s one quote by Richard Price that says,
“You don’t write about the horrors of war. No. You write about a kid’s burnt socks lying in the road.”
We get the horrors of war from this quote. From one detail. Not all the equipment. Not a heroic moment. Just one detail that reminds us of all the sacrifices of war. This is about writing.
Wanna share some fun details from your day? No explanation needed.
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