Be Both Scared and Courageous

Be Both Scared and Courageous 

Because I believe you can.

 
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I’m scared of a lot of things. I’m afraid of being wrong and bringing people down with me. I’m afraid of starting over, I’m afraid that making money off my writing is going to turn me into an egotistical asshole. I’m afraid I’m going to die too soon, but mostly and above all else, I’m afraid I’m failing my babies.

I used to allow these fears to dictate my daily behaviors. I created unhealthy rituals based on fear. They usually involved me not showing up so I didn’t have to worry about getting things wrong.

Too many people are thinking of security instead of opportunity. They seem to be more afraid of life than death.
— James F. Byrnes

But then I realized that death was a lot closer than I thought. I realized that I could wake up one day without having ever lived up to my dreams, …

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Solipsism

She’s gone

snuffed out with just a thought

not person could save her

or her body

or her works

 

dead and gone

 

the gift of being mortal

the gift of life

to gift your body into the hands of another

because there is no fight

there never was

pain is an act of life

death is the grand-finale

but there’s no going out with a bang

it will be far less extravagant than that

-Saschia

On Writing honest characters

She’s Dead

I’ve softened from the wheel of time

My heart, swollen from loss

From love

These tipped toes move through the crevice where my suicide mocks me

And life burns my loose ends

I have become the voice I died for

Her crown tossed to the floor

Neglected by my attention

What is the reason for this, but my empty stomach

Starving for more more more

Heart

-Saschia