Kinda Like

I need to get it out

All the earthquakes and volcanic eruptions

Nestled beneath the surface

I can’t simmer

And stew

I have to be honest with me

About my own feelings

So they don’t control me

Maybe it will help you be honest with yourself too

But I’m definitely not doing this for you

This honesty, this truth baring

It’s a completely selfish act

Kinda like masturbation

-Saschia

I am Dorthy’s Defense Mechanism

Dorthey has to fight the villain inside her. She tries to stay focused on growth and not letting others bring her down. But sometimes she gets down, real down. She wants to drag her enemies to the depths of hell. Introduce them her friend, Death and fill their bellies with the greatest pleasures in life. She wants to leave them stranded and lonely waiting for someone to just. come. and. love. them. The place she was. The way she was. And sometimes she loses control and she stoops. She stoops and she feels like she’s let herself down every time she does. She never wants another human to feel the physical and emotional pain she’s gone through. But she clinches her fists and grits her teeth at times, praying for vengeance from above and below. Then she thinks, you know what, they may never realize the pain they caused. They may never take the time to learn their own soul. Their own magnificent inner being. Now that, is the true heartbreak. And that is when she reels herself back in and remembers that in another life, in another dimension, she made the same mistake. Even if it would have never been in this lifetime. That thought slacks her jaw and releases her shoulders. This is her growth. This is a snapshot inside a human mind attempting to grow from every circumstance. This is her truth.

Linen

Linens hang from me

I stand to rebuild and restore what was lost

The stench of death will stalk me

These pains will ache and swell and ooze

And after the burial has ended

I will emerge

naked, broken, and old

one with the soil stuck to my palms

Maybe

I will master the art of tea,

souffles, and silence

I will go on

♡Saschia

I Wanted To

I wanted to remove every piece of me
from you

Every secret I told

Every baby flushed down the drain

Every moment I allowed myself to let you see me at my weakest point

Every tear that landed on your shoulder

I wanted it all back

I wanted my love and my sweatshirt

I wanted my lessons and the many moments I stepped outside myself for your benefit

I wanted it all back

But not today

Today I choose love

-Sasch

Kiss Me

While the world wastes away on a monotonous routine

step outside of it all and kiss me hard.

Don’t kiss me hard only after everything is falling apart

Kiss me hardwhen everything is going right

There’s no point in waiting

This is what life is:

connections, honesty, bravery

Show up, kiss me.

It’s not always easy,

but it makes life worth living

And these days it seems we need more reasons

to stay alive.

-Sasch