You needed rest
So I gave it to you
Now, hop back on the bike
And enjoy the sights
Feel the breeze
And let your spirit
Fly free
-Saschia
A place where you can be human.
You needed rest
So I gave it to you
Now, hop back on the bike
And enjoy the sights
Feel the breeze
And let your spirit
Fly free
-Saschia
The art flows free when I’m with Ares
We tripped over the skulls of our enemies
Sat on the piles of their riches stacked to the sky
And I know, I don’t need Ares, or revenge, or riches to make art
And I know he takes away my focus.
Aphrodite is
a healthier option
The wiser choice
But Aries was the adventure I had missed
The only kind that crawls right under my thick skin
He made me dance
Inside and out
He shut me down and lit me up
He’s not safe
not in the slightest
Our dark minds wielded blood splatter
And chaos
The only way I could justify us was art
We were so art
You should have seen us
-Saschia
The tingle in my belly
The itch under my knee caps
pulses pulses
It keeps me awake
It’s a strong wave tonight
Eyes open eyes open
Maybe too much caffeine
Yea that’s it
I should be sleeping
I wish I could
-Saschia
I choose emotionally unavailable men because I require a significant amount of solitude. But instead I should find an emotionally available man who also needs a significant amount of solitude. It looks so simple in writing.
The sleep is heavy tonight
My eyes drift shut
Like they see a bad memory
When I can
I pry them open
I twist through thoughts
Pushing away more words
Than I’m accepting
But what comes out
Comes out
Sometimes I’m proud
Most times it’s just
A feeling of relief
-Saschia
I found my home
On a beach
The home was me
I found home in me
On a beach
Alone
Loneliness comes much less
Since that day on the beach
The waves crashed
Lovers walked
And the sun set
-Saschia
She’s spun up like cotton candy
Once you get a taste
It’s never enough
She goes round and round
Emotion to emotion
Skipping stones
There’s heart in her
A life so loud it’d clap your ear drums
A taste so sweet it makes your head ache
A wild soul
A wandering woman
Begging to be set free
-Saschia
I’ve reached a place in my life where I’m more full, more myself, and more humble than I’ve ever been. I feel so me. The self that loved with no expectations. The girl before her first heartbreak. It’s as if I’m getting a second chance at life and love and following my dreams. Life isn’t always so kind, so all I can do is hope it lasts and hope I can hang onto this as long as I can. Maybe life will be so kind, who knows? All I know, is I want to wake up, I want to sleep, and I get chills when I finally get to sit down and carve away at my craft. This is all so temporary, I had to write it down. I had leave proof. There is hope after allowing yourself to heal. There is life after an affair. Value isn’t lost because someone doesn’t appreciate it. And it’s ok to feel fuller and wiser and more yourself once you get through.
Yay me!
“Swallow them down so that it doesn’t hurt so bad to need the love they promised if only you could just behave.” Loving these words. Couldn’t read one more post without sharing.
It wasn’t a get things done type of day
It was a let’s just enjoy the moment type of day
Things were going fine
Then I got sucked back into the real world
I’d rather be writing
-Saschia