Threshold

I crossed the threshold.

It took some time.

I paced the door

looked in the key hole

I even tested the handle

then finally, I crossed the threshold

only to find another hall

full of a hundred more wonky doors

This is a nice hall

I hall worth resting in

I’ll test some more doors tomorrow

 

-Sasch

Seasons of solitude Or Seasons of hell

I Wanted To

I wanted to remove every piece of me
from you

Every secret I told

Every baby flushed down the drain

Every moment I allowed myself to let you see me at my weakest point

Every tear that landed on your shoulder

I wanted it all back

I wanted my love and my sweatshirt

I wanted my lessons and the many moments I stepped outside myself for your benefit

I wanted it all back

But not today

Today I choose love

-Sasch

The Good Fight

My heart beats stronger with threat

It brings the life out of me

The rage redirected to art

To rebuilding myself

I will not be a machine

tears and snot drip down my face

I will not stop I will only grow larger and larger

And my dreams will be closer and closer

With an aching heart, I will rise

And I won’t stop

I will never stop

♡Saschia

Returned Energy

I finally feel the energy I’ve craved

I feel this tingle in my toes

Ready to go go go

I want to reach goals

I want to give hope

I feel my strength returning

It gives me the courage to lose

To fail

I’ve burned my backpack full of grief

And pushed life out of me

I am alive

I am free

I am healthy

I am determined to finish building the life I dreamed of.

♡Saschia

Heartbeats

From moment to moment

There’s these spaces in between

They are the heartbeats

The lifeline leading

From moment to moment

The repetitive beats are often disregarded

left to be automatic

But it’s not that moment you’ve been waiting for that’s so amazing

It’s all the beats that come together over time to make these moments breathtaking

♡Saschia